A Psalm of Nick Watts

The words on this reblog are so very much my own yet they were written by another parent suffering the same. Although I never saw my son after he died, my mind imagined the scene… and still does in my weakest moments. When watching movies or tv I am caught off guard by unexpected suicides. Guns to the head. I know the pain fresh again.

I have written many a psalm of my own, expressing my anger, pain, frustration, grief and yes, even my praise and gratitude for my Savior who holds my son now. I send messages, asking Jesus to tell Brandon we love him, just like Nick Watts. Just like so many other grieving parents. I reblog because these words emphasize my heart’s continuous pain and how God is still my refuge, my comforter, my Father. How He is all these things and more to we who are brokenhearted for our lifetime on earth.

Soul Food

Reading through the Psalms you commonly see the following subheadings: a psalm of David, or a psalm of Asaph,…

I’ll never forget what I once heard one of my professors say:

“A psalm is simply a person’s response to God’s activity in their life.”

That’s why, in the Psalms, we see the full gamut of human emotion – everything from rage and despair to joy and praise. And everything in between. It’s my favorite book in the Bible.

So today, on this May 13th, I offer this psalm…

O Lord, please hear my cry.

I was once told that the loss of a child will change a parent forever.  And, having discovered my 19 year old son’s body five years ago today, I am finding that to be quite true.

I’ve read the loss of a child being compared to an amputation. For a man who’s lost…

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5 comments

  1. Dale, you and I are a part of what I heard another parent-of-suicide call an “unwanted fraternity.” I read your “about” and was deeply moved. I know you stated you feel old but you look radiant. (I tell people I’ve aged a hundred years since 2013.) I’m also glad you mentioned the perpetuated satanic lie claiming a person who takes their own life goes to hell. I wrote an entire blog on that one. As I often remind people who are hurting, Jesus is whispering to you, “I’ve got this. Trust me.” Much love you to, my precious friend. Nick

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    • Thank you, Nick, for your words of encouragement. I have looked forward to your posts since discovering your blog several years ago. I am so sad for your ‘loss.’ It is a sorrow and “complicated grief” that knows no end in this lifetime.

      I have read and re-read all of your posts about the subject of suicide and the Bible. I believe God has directed my desperate search to blogs, articles, and people. I am grateful yet saddened by our shared bereavement.

      I did want to make mention about your son Jordan’s name. It happens to be my middle name. Brandon’s friend who is also named Brandon has the last name Watts and his wife’s name is Jordan.

      I pray that you and your family have the peace that passes all understanding. We know there is a great reunion ahead of us. God bless you.

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  2. Thank you, Nick, for your words of encouragement. I have looked forward to your posts since discovering your blog several years ago. I am so sad for your ‘loss.’ It is a sorrow and “complicated grief” that knows no end in this lifetime.

    I have read and re-read all of your posts about the subject of suicide and the Bible. I believe God has directed my desperate search to blogs, articles, and people. I am grateful yet saddened by our shared bereavement.

    I did want to make mention about your son Jordan’s name. It happens to be my middle name. Brandon’s friend who is also named Brandon has the last name Watts and his wife’s name is Jordan.

    I pray that you and your family have the peace that passes all understanding. We know there is a great reunion ahead of us. God bless you.

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