On the heels of a bad day, I am reminded of all the signs of peace and comfort that God has sent me since the earthly death of my son. Of course, I am prone to sadness and mourning because I am human. I am a mother. In those first emotionally tumultuous days of new grief and shock over the way it was said my son died, I was swept under by not only overwhelming sadness but doubt…doubt put there by Satan, by the world…and yes, by religion.
In the wee hours of the morning of that first week of our tragedy, I wandered the house sobbing and crying out to God. I pounded my fists on the kitchen table and asked God to help me to know about my son’s soul. I was so confused…again, the devil talking. As a Christian mother, it was devastating to me that my son would take his own life. I could not believe it. I could not believe that my wonderful child was not only gone from this earth but that he left he way he did…or that we were told he left his way…such a terrible not knowing place to be.
There were no bright lights or halo moments but only a gentle nudging to go to the den where on the lamp table was the devotional, “Morning and Evening” by Charles Spurgeon. I opened it and the heading of that “random” page read: “He that cometh to me I will in no wise cast out.” John 6:37 The following is the devotion that I read. It gave me immense comfort as only God can give.I call this a Godcidence.
“He that cometh to me I will in no wise cast out.” John 6:37
No limit is set to the duration of this promise. It does not merely say, “I will not cast out a sinner at his first coming,” but, “I will in no wise cast out.” The original read, “I will not, not cast out,” or “I will never, never cast out.” The text means, that Christ will not at first reject a believer; and that as He will not do it at first, so He will not to the last.
But suppose the believer sins after coming? “If any man sin we have an advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ the righteous.” But suppose that believers backslide? “I will heal their backsliding, I will love them freely; for mine anger is turned away from him.” But believers may fall under temptation! “God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.” But the believer may fall into sin as David did! Yes, but He will purge them with hyssop, and they shall be clean; he will wash them and they shall be whiter than snow”; “From all their iniquities will I cleanse them.”
“I give unto my sheep,” saith He, “eternal life; and they shall never perish, neither shall any man pluck them out of my hand.” What sayest thou to this, O trembling feeble mind? Is not this a precious mercy, that coming to Christ, thou dost not come to One who will treat thee well for a little while, and then send thee about thy business, but He will receive thee and make thee His bride, and thou shalt be His forever? Receive no longer the spirit of bondage again to fear, but the spirit of adoption whereby thou shalt cry, Abba, Father! Oh! The grace of these words: “I will in no wise cast out.”
Charles H. Spurgeon ( Morning and Evening Devotions)