My son’s name is Brandon Heath. He is in heaven as a result from dying from depression….a sometimes fatal disease. People who knew Brandon knew he was a witty, loving, talented, and compassionate person. I remember joking with him that “he had made a cd”…that someone (Brandon Heath the Christian singer) had “stolen his name.” He smiled that deep dimpled smile of his and said that he had heard of Brandon Heath the singer who was new to the contemporary Christian scene a few months before my Brandon died.
Brandon Heath the singer made this recording and I discovered it while viewing Christian videos on youtube. Another thing I noticed when finding this song on Youtube is the date it was uploaded….March 5th, 2013…almost 4 yrs to the day of my son’s passing, March 6, 2009. This song has a history with me since the early days of my grief.
I grew up hearing “It Is Well With My Soul” in church but it had no impact on me until…..when a few months after my son died, I begged God to send me a sign that my son was with Him. Even though, I knew that my son was a Christian, the devil wanted me to think differently because of the way my son died….by suicide.
It was during communion that as I knelt at the rail to receive the blood and body of my Savior…that the song began to play. I had already prayed that I receive a sign before I approached the rail. After the first three notes played I KNEW. This song has played countless times for me during communion…at the rail….following my most difficult days since my son passed.
I never knew the history of this song until I looked more into it. If you go to the internet and google the song’s title…there it is. The song was written by Horatio Spatford following the deaths of all his children; a most horrific loss. The song has even more meaning to me than ever before. I share with any who will listen of how this song has been sent to help me through my grief by a person who also dealt with his own children’s deaths. I thank God for this song always. I hope it brings you peace, too.
This song was given to me by my Lord during the worst time of my life. He continues to send it to me in most wonderfully unexpected ways. I am forever thankful for His mercy, love, and grace